Ok, I missed yesterday...trying to catch up
You know...last night I was standing at the kitchen sink when I realized that I hadn't done my blog for the day...
I said..."I need to go get my laptop so I can do my blog"...a commitment to me so that I would be able to chronicle my journey into womanhood...
And I said...No, I don't feel like it...and I didn't...and that was wrong.
It wasn't wrong to say that I didn't feel like getting it...the wrong came in when I didn't do it.
See, what I have tried to do is everything that I don't want to to do because that's the only way that I can reverse the habit. I had been asking the Lord to help me with laziness. (umm hmm)
I want to escape it because it's keeping me away from some things that I want in my life. (yep)
Some people call it procrastination....I think that's the polite term.
For me it's plain lazy...I get upset when I tell my child to do something and he does it "half-way"
But what I have recognized is that he is only mocking what I do. It may not be in the same fashion but it's the same idea.
Check this out...You are at work and you take the last cup of coffee...Do you start a new pot or do you leave it for the next person...
My initial thought is start a new pot...because I know that's what's right...but the laziness in me says...it can wait...when actually it can't! I don't know when the next person will come to get a cup and I don't know who it will be.
Whose to say that while I'm standing there preparing to make a new pot, the CEO comes to get a cup of coffee, we start talking and from that few minutes I get the promotion! Sounds far fecthed but it could happen.
Check out Joseph's story of promotion .
Joseph was the son of Jacob (aka Israel) . He was sold into slavery by his brothers and put in jail for something that he hadn't done. (See Genesis 37:27 & 39:7-23) Instead of acting in bitterness, he found favor with the warden and was placed over the other prisoners (1st promotion) (See Genesis 39:20-23). As a prisoner in charge of other prisoners, we can imagine the hatred that Joseph faced, not only because of the warden's favor but because he was a Jew (believer) placed in authority over Egyptians (Non-Believers). Despite the bitterness surrounding him, coming toward him, he was able to look past his hurt and see the hurt of two prisoners, the King's baker and cupbearer, who would eventually be his ticket out (See Genesis 40 & 41).
When David gave the interpretations of the dreams, he was only doing what was right. He didn't know what would come of his obidence, he just knew what he was supposed to do, and he did it.
Can you imagine how difficult it was for Joseph to push past his pain and cater to the needs of everyone around him inspite of what he was facing?
He decided to start a new pot of coffee every chance he got and eventually that new pot of coffee got him a seat in the high court. Second in command only to the king of Egypt.
What a prize! What a reward for obedience! To be able to sit next to the King of Glory only because of obedience to the Word of God. Choosing to do what's right inspite of how I feel!
Make that fresh pot of coffee, for you never know who the next drinker will be! (Promotion!)
Choose Life!
Be Blessed in Jesus Name.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Tuesday Feb 15, 2011
Well, I did it again...I think. I love someone enough to respect them. To respect what they want. What they like & don't like. I think I can say before it didn't matter too much to me what someone else thought or liked or whatever.
I think that qualifies as not caring for that person, PERIOD.
hmm...that is SO not of God.
What would Jesus think of me?
What does Jesus think of me?
So selfish of me to think only of myself...now that doesn't mean that I don't love myself. (Loving me is not accepting less than what HE would have for me).
It simply means...don't deliberatly step on someones toes.
Seriously, we call it rude when someone walks in a room and doesn't speak. But when someone steps to another and completely clowns them (Egg on Face, Face on Floor) we say "Oh Well!"
NO way! Sin is sin! And we have to look at it like that or we will never heal from what we have done before so we don't repeat the sin again.
Hmm...let's see if I can make this clearer...the man that I love is LOVE!
He embodies everything that I want out of love. He shows me a good time when I don't want a good time. He makes me wallow in myself when I want to endulge in others. He makes me laugh when crying is all I do. He makes me smile all the time. I can't help but remember the things that he does and smile tenderly while whispering "Thank You, Jesus"
LOVE is the only one I care about pleasing. He is in me, within my soul, my heart, my being. He is the one - forever more. Til someone takes His place, I will be forever faithful.
--As I wrote this part...I realized that's not going to happen.--
The man that comes into my life to take the place as my husband will be no more than the reflection of Christ that I have been dreaming of all my life -- That's Love. He is a dream-Come true-reality walking. That man that women say is impossible to find - He is out there somewhere and I know it because Jesus loves me enough to say so in my life and the life of others (believers)
-He is waiting for us to make a commitment to Christ like none other. He is awaiting the change in us that signifies we are ready for him.
-See God is not going to send someone to us that will not pull us away from Christ but will gather around the throne of grace with no motive but to raise Christ before the masses for all to see.
-That man that respects Christ.
-That man that will dream of nothing more than putting his arms around you when you are crying because he wants to feel the hurt that you feel.
That man that dreams with you instead of against you.
That man that sores so high that the clouds can't rain on you and the sun can't burn you.
That man that desires nothing more than to pleasure you with sweet little kisses and wants no thing in return ;)
A man sent from heaven, so divine - angels can only stare in complete and total AWE!
That's Love...MY Love...(I'm Waiting...though it hurts and is most times EXTREMELY difficult...I'll wait)
In Jesus Name...Be Blessed!!
I think that qualifies as not caring for that person, PERIOD.
hmm...that is SO not of God.
What would Jesus think of me?
What does Jesus think of me?
So selfish of me to think only of myself...now that doesn't mean that I don't love myself. (Loving me is not accepting less than what HE would have for me).
It simply means...don't deliberatly step on someones toes.
Seriously, we call it rude when someone walks in a room and doesn't speak. But when someone steps to another and completely clowns them (Egg on Face, Face on Floor) we say "Oh Well!"
NO way! Sin is sin! And we have to look at it like that or we will never heal from what we have done before so we don't repeat the sin again.
Hmm...let's see if I can make this clearer...the man that I love is LOVE!
He embodies everything that I want out of love. He shows me a good time when I don't want a good time. He makes me wallow in myself when I want to endulge in others. He makes me laugh when crying is all I do. He makes me smile all the time. I can't help but remember the things that he does and smile tenderly while whispering "Thank You, Jesus"
LOVE is the only one I care about pleasing. He is in me, within my soul, my heart, my being. He is the one - forever more. Til someone takes His place, I will be forever faithful.
--As I wrote this part...I realized that's not going to happen.--
The man that comes into my life to take the place as my husband will be no more than the reflection of Christ that I have been dreaming of all my life -- That's Love. He is a dream-Come true-reality walking. That man that women say is impossible to find - He is out there somewhere and I know it because Jesus loves me enough to say so in my life and the life of others (believers)
-He is waiting for us to make a commitment to Christ like none other. He is awaiting the change in us that signifies we are ready for him.
-See God is not going to send someone to us that will not pull us away from Christ but will gather around the throne of grace with no motive but to raise Christ before the masses for all to see.
-That man that respects Christ.
-That man that will dream of nothing more than putting his arms around you when you are crying because he wants to feel the hurt that you feel.
That man that dreams with you instead of against you.
That man that sores so high that the clouds can't rain on you and the sun can't burn you.
That man that desires nothing more than to pleasure you with sweet little kisses and wants no thing in return ;)
A man sent from heaven, so divine - angels can only stare in complete and total AWE!
That's Love...MY Love...(I'm Waiting...though it hurts and is most times EXTREMELY difficult...I'll wait)
In Jesus Name...Be Blessed!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Monday Feb 14th 2011
Today is Valentine's day...
I don't have any bad feelings about it. I don't desire to be with anyone...Well maybe that's not the sole truth...
I do desire to be with someone...but I want it to be mutual.
There I said it...I have been in relationships before...by myself.
Doing all that I can to make it work, all the while leaving myself exposed (and quite frankly looking aweful thirsty).
Thirsty...thirsty meaning desiring for something...Just like when you are thirsty for a drink...A woman or man that chases after a man or woman who is not at all interested in you for real.
Yep, I have done it. I don't know why I did it. I think it's easier to point the blame at my past and say...You did this to me and that to me and because of your actions then, I am like this now. (Honestly, I think alot of people are in jail for that very reason...)
But none the less. I am facing reality now.
I have desired to be in love. I do desire to be in love.
Not just love for the sake of saying it but love for real.
I want to be loved by a man that loves God first. So much so that he can't help but love me as Christ loved the Church.
Hmm...that's what I have been missing in my life..Christ first...
Hence the reason for my ceremony! I am excited to announce that I, Jacklyn Walker, am marrying myself (So to speak). I am committing to me forever, to love and to cherish, for richer or for poorer for better or for worse. While death will occur in my life, I vow to make the best of every situation knowing that with Christ on my side is all I need to survive.
I Love Jesus, He's my Saviour...Wherever he leads me I will follow...Cuz I love Jesus, and He Loves Me!
Aight so stay posted for details. The commitment ceremony journey begins...NOW!
Be Blessed!
I don't have any bad feelings about it. I don't desire to be with anyone...Well maybe that's not the sole truth...
I do desire to be with someone...but I want it to be mutual.
There I said it...I have been in relationships before...by myself.
Doing all that I can to make it work, all the while leaving myself exposed (and quite frankly looking aweful thirsty).
Thirsty...thirsty meaning desiring for something...Just like when you are thirsty for a drink...A woman or man that chases after a man or woman who is not at all interested in you for real.
Yep, I have done it. I don't know why I did it. I think it's easier to point the blame at my past and say...You did this to me and that to me and because of your actions then, I am like this now. (Honestly, I think alot of people are in jail for that very reason...)
But none the less. I am facing reality now.
I have desired to be in love. I do desire to be in love.
Not just love for the sake of saying it but love for real.
I want to be loved by a man that loves God first. So much so that he can't help but love me as Christ loved the Church.
Hmm...that's what I have been missing in my life..Christ first...
Hence the reason for my ceremony! I am excited to announce that I, Jacklyn Walker, am marrying myself (So to speak). I am committing to me forever, to love and to cherish, for richer or for poorer for better or for worse. While death will occur in my life, I vow to make the best of every situation knowing that with Christ on my side is all I need to survive.
I Love Jesus, He's my Saviour...Wherever he leads me I will follow...Cuz I love Jesus, and He Loves Me!
Aight so stay posted for details. The commitment ceremony journey begins...NOW!
Be Blessed!
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